Fly on the wall!!

Well it has been a while! Not that I haven't had any thing to post about, just life sometimes gets busy. So I have been away from home for a little. Doing some schooling! Some days it is really exciting other days I am wishing that I was at home with my family. This experience of being away has brought us a different way of communicating. Via internet video chatting!! It has not been the same as being on the phone or sending letters through emails. We have used snail mail for communication as well. What I enjoy about this form of contact is that there have been many times that my wife has called me and left the line open while she carries on with her tasks of running our home. She has been wonderful at keeping our children safe while juggling all of her responsibilities. I think she likes to leave the line open so that I can feel like I am part of the family during my down time, yet there are many times that I feel like I am a fly on the wall just watching not really able to interact. When I do attempt to help her with the children I feel like I am that buzzing pest that is trying to fly up your nose. I hate feeling helpless with my family. I am so grateful that I have been able to keep my relationship strong with my wife and been able to talk and pray with her. I am glad that she will always be there for me even if I am what feels like a light year away. I hope that I can be the same for her by being that support that she needs. Lord please help me be an Ebeneezer to my family!!